Just call me “open-minded”
January 24, 2009
If I’ve learned anything in the past three years, it’s that I tend to jump into things too quickly. Choice of college, my relationships, deciding what classes to take, volunteering for stuff–I’d say about 90% of such decisions were made quickly without evaluating all options. I’m not saying all of these things are bad, but what I have realized is that sometimes I need to think things through, give them time, and revisit them when I have a clearer mind. Many times, I don’t necessarily wait and seek out what I’m really going after and then in time, I realize that I’ve accumulated a list of regrets and “what if’s”. Lately I’ve been thinking that maybe, just maybe, I should have waited longer before deciding on a college. Wondering what if I would have figured out a way to study abroad this past fall? What would my life be like if I could have been the person I wanted to be a year ago?
While I know wondering about the past won’t at all affect my life now, it’s this reflection that leads me into thinking about how I live my life presently. Am I where I want to be as a person? Am I letting things pass me by? I have to identify what I want and really start going after it before I wake up in ten years and realize that I’ve let things slip through the cracks. I feel like with the new year and my birthday around the corner, I really really have to straighten myself out. Not because someone else needs me to, but because I need me to. It’s the least I owe myself.